They say you should always do what you fear most, right?

I want to ask somebody what I should do but I know that even though I don't have a clue, there's no one better to ask than myself. I do love him and want to be with him, but I feel like life is passing me by without getting to know myself any better. Every day I spend with him I learn more and more about him, but it takes time away from others and puts my own growth in 2nd place. The worst part about all this is, every time I want to stretch and use my wings I don't. Love keeps me grounded.. but what if I want to fly?